Seriously no one actually know how i feel about my father. They think they do. But how can they feel what i am feeling when my father is acting outside to the world and a fcker at home? We just got back for Gi ku birthday party. Everyone had fun except him. We had pasta, pizza and so much more delicious stuff but all he could actually say was :

"The food is no big deal! The italian actually came to China and maybe mix several ingredients and call it pasta. I rather eat WAN TAN MEE man."

Please, Nobody wanted to invite him actually. I think just for my mom's sake. And when my brother called, it was 1 am over there in Aust. He sound extremly tired but all my father could say:

" What the hell is the boy still doing awake. His 2 friends already sleeping and he is still up. He better adapt to his surroundings. No more sleeping late and waking up late anymore. when people is studying, he is sleeping"

Kor make the point to call and talk to you. what is your fcking problem? Is it when you talk to your family members, there must be negative comments? Why can t you be happy that kor is safe and sound. Why do you worry about this? He is another kiss-up, boot- licker person.

I really hate this.
I am sorry i ever mention leaving home.
but why cant anybody actually understand.

He does not even know my age and even know how to pronouce my name. He just call his children by BOY or GIRL. Make it a point to at least remember who we are. He thinks he have power, i just wait until he grow old. All he cares is his face, he is so worry that he will loose it.

meanwhile i will just have to survive here.
on my own now..

Look, i am not depressed
i am just fcking pissed.

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went out with yvonne to Bishan to get birthday presents for the 3 girls. We wanted to get them a name keychain. So there used to be a big blocks of letters but now it is also sold smaller in size. As people rarely buy the big blocks, It was sold cheaper and yvonne asked if it was a good idea. " I think people seldom buy this anymore, like most will find it ugly and childish" -smack mouth- The girl who was buying the big blocks of letter was actually glaring at me. Yvonne totally ran out of the shop and LEFT ME THERE.

I don t want to say too much about the prezzies. I am afraid that they will read it .(:

anyways,i really had fun with you guys today.
both my friends and cousins,
thanks for being there for me .
i really appreciate it
and of course my mother
for always standing by my dreams. (:

If i won the grammy awards, i would say that phrase!
WAHAHAHAHAS

okays i think the wine is getting to me.

-rub eyes-